9.11.2011

Now

Every year I sit alone listening to the reading of the names. I imagine my name being read, and I think of my family. That's when I cry. Love to all the families who lost someone ten years ago today.

Here is my sister's poem inspired by a conversation between my father and I about fate. Thank you for this Lily Belle:

Experience has nothing to do with it.
My father says denying my brothers theory
Can you listen to me this time?
Past arguments have taught me to tune them out
However, this debate changed my usual path of silence
Not expecting how this moment would change me now

The question presented is whether now is an illusion
if so, can we experience anything at all
negating the idea of a decided path of life
Each had a strong and opposite theory
Arguing whether the past has a cause
And the concept of time

My father says time is irrelevant
There is only now and nothing more
There is no past
And memory is not an experience
With this my fathers theory concludes
Fate or a mapped out path is impossible

Of course we have a path
And time is the acknowledgement of our life
My brothers theory intrigues me more then my fathers
As I was confused on his sense of now
My instinct initiates a recall of his life experience
The past that has formed his ideals

A past event comes to mind
Walking his usual path to work
An experience permanently changed his being
At the time, I struggled to understand his devastation
Ten years later, I now have some sense
This conflicting theory is his struggle for why

He furthers his theory to say the following
The past haunts us
Present always in the now
The path we follow
Every time we process a moment
The experience affects our future

Reflecting on the experience a theory emerges
The time has come to unmask the past
Break through the misty path and understand his now

7.07.2011

How is this still okay?

These abilify ads. One, fuck you ad people for making "depression" a little black cloud with sad eyes. Two, ADD it to your existing anti-depressant? Three, here are the potential side effects they actually tell you about in the ad:

Unusual changes in behavior
Thoughts of suicide
Stiff muscles
High fever
Confusion
Uncontrollable muscle movements (which could become permanent)
Decreases in white blood cells, which can be serious (thanks for clearing that up)
Dizziness upon standing
Seizures
Trouble swallowing
Impaired judgement

You know what that's starting to sound like? Fucking Parkinson's. People willingly take this? Also fuck you to any doctor that prescribes this psychotropic poison.




I'd say this is a good conversation addresses it well.

7.03.2011

Lovebots. Kind of gross and creepy

I suppose this was just a matter of time - Someone made the first love robot that emulates human internal states based on levels of hormones and neurotransmitters like oxytocin, serotonin, dopamine, etc. The result is kind of a creepy little David Cronenbergesque, spinning, chirping 20's hat. Install a flesh light and I'm in...

6.28.2011

Bobby McFerrin is a Neuroscientist

Amazing (thanks Elise)

Ouch, my brain

Man, these hurt.

7.07.2009

MJ's Ghost

Finally, proof...

7.03.2009

Subtlety = Officially Over

Jesus, this a bit brutal, isn't it?



I'm gonna have nightmares...